Night In The Ruts
Got a message today from an old friend who was asking why it’s been so quiet around here lately. It got me thinking; I don’t really know why I’ve been so quiet; I’m not exactly know for being the church mouse. It’s been much busier around here lately; I’m helping coach NukeBoy1’s football team 3 nights a week and we’ve had a full slate of extra-cirriculars as summer winds down, but I’m not sure if that’s what’s causing my mutedness. NukeBoy2 had another episode yesterday when he fainted and fell right on the back of his head. He said he felt pain across the back of his head before he fainted, but, once again, the Doctors can tell us nothing. Maybe that’s what it is; I’ve been trying to come to terms with this whole situation, and I thought I was doing OK with it, but now I’m not so sure. I’m not one to live life from a position of fear or weakness, yet fear and weakness is all that I feel lately. I kept telling myself; “He’s fine, back to normal, it was a fluke”, and it very well may have been all of that, it’s just; I can’t be sure. And neither can the Doctors. And that’s what scares me shit-less. What if he had fainted while on his bike? While a car was coming? What if he had been in the middle of the deep end of the pool? What if…what if. I don’t do well with “what if’s”, but I’m forced to live that way right now. I’ll see you soon….
WeaselMomma
I feel for you and hope you get solid answers soon.
(NukeDad) Thanks, Barb, but I don’t see that happening anytime soon.
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Aug 20, 2009 @ 10:35 am
Melisa
We miss you lots, but your family comes first. We’ll all be here whenever you get back (darn super glue). xoxo
(NukeDad) Thanks, Melisa-we’ll be working on it.
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Aug 20, 2009 @ 10:40 am
tom
Nuke – it’s part of life, cycles of change and being unsure. And responding to the uncertainty of a situation like this; you just don’t know, and that tends to eat up all of your emotional resources.
I hope and pray that answers come, and soon. Hang in there, buddy – we’re all here and we’ll stay with you.
(NukeDad) Thanks, Tom; I just thought that I had settled this issue and now I find out that I haven’t. Lots of work left to do.
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Aug 20, 2009 @ 10:56 am
Mocha Dad
I hope all is well with your son.
(NukeDad) Thanks, Mocha Dad-I just wish we had some tangible answers.
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Aug 20, 2009 @ 3:03 pm
Tara R.
It’s a drain on your own well-being to be living in ‘what ifs.’ Take care of NukeBoy2, your family and yourself.
I’ll leave a light on for when you can get back.
(NukeDad) Thanks, Tara; should be back to normal soon. Wait, did I just say that I was once normal? I am in trouble.
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Aug 20, 2009 @ 5:48 pm
Baby Dad Chris
Take care of that family of yours, hopefully you’ll get your answers soon enough. Even if it isn’t the best answer, knowing is half the battle.
(NukeDad) You’re exactly right, and that’s the problem; no one can give us any answers. I’d much rather know (good or bad) than be guessing the whole time.
Baby Dad Chris´s last blog ..Dad Blogs You Should Be Reading
Aug 20, 2009 @ 9:23 pm
SurprisedMom
I’m sorry you are going through this. I do sincerely hope you get some answers soon. I’m sure it is frightening to live this way. I sympathize. If it was my child, living this way would bring out the fear and helplessness in me, too.
Family always comes first, so while we will miss you, we all understand where your priorities lay.
Take care of yourself.
(NukeDad) Thanks, Surprised Mom; trying my best to stay positive. I was doing great, or so I thought. Maybe it was just denial masquerading as positive thoughts. Will get back on track.
SurprisedMom´s last blog ..Saying goodbye
Aug 20, 2009 @ 10:31 pm
Xbox4NappyRash
Look after the important things.
All the best.
(NukeDad) Thanks, Xbox; I’m doing my best.
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Aug 21, 2009 @ 1:01 pm
Kelley @ Magnetoboldtoo
Such a horrible feeling.
One that no one can understand until they become a parent.
I will be thinking of you all too, and hoping that you get some kind of answer soon.
(NukeDad) Thanks, Kelley; we’ll take all of the positive mojo we can get.
Kelley @ Magnetoboldtoo´s last blog ..Sofitel Melbourne can suck it.
Aug 25, 2009 @ 5:08 am
Muskrat
Hi ND! Sorry to hear about the health scare, but I’m happy to hear about the football coaching…sounds like a lot of fun. I like the new look around here, by the way. Sorry for not stopping by much. Like you, I don’t read or write much on blogs (took a couple mos off completely) because of increased “real life” responsibilities associated with my being newly self-employed. I do enjoy keeping with you and other friends on Twitter (easier to do from the palm of my hand!), though!
Take care -
(NukeDad) Thanks for stopping by, Muskrat; I should be out and about soon, just trying to get all of my ducks in row…so I can get out my shotgun and blast ‘em! Just kidding all of you animal lovers.
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Aug 26, 2009 @ 8:51 am
Otter
Uncertainty is ths scariest thing in the world. I hope you get some answers soon.
(NukeDad) Thanks, Otter; we took him in today and have a slew of tests to be done over the next few weeks. At least we are moving forward, not sitting around waiting.
Otter´s last blog ..Jack of All Trades
Aug 27, 2009 @ 4:04 pm
Mike
Scary! Hope someone comes up with an answer soon…
(NukeDad) Just went to the neurologist the other day and we have a lot of tests coming up that should move us closer to an answer.
Mike´s last blog ..The Consortium…
Aug 29, 2009 @ 11:02 pm
Mr. Man
Dude, we’ll be here when you’re ready. Take care of the fam first. God bless!
(NukeDad)Thanks, Mr. Man; should be out and about soon…
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Aug 30, 2009 @ 9:51 pm
Momo Fali
I hate what-ifs. I hate them so much. We have been faced with a lot of them. I hope you get some answers. Soon.
(NukeDad) Thanks, Momo; I know that you and your family have been through worse than this, but you’re right; the “what if’s” surely do suck.
Momo Fali´s last blog ..Baby Talk
Sep 02, 2009 @ 8:22 pm
melissa
my cousins son was having episodes like that. one of them was when he was just walking on the sidewalk. suddenly, he passed out. without warning.
she took him to a neurologist. they did all sorts of tests. mri’s, x-rays, blood…
nothing.
and it passed. but they never found out why it was happening. there was a lot of stress in his life at that point. they wonder if that’s what caused it.
i hope you find out! it’s so horrible to stand around helplessly wondering if your child is ok. i’m so sorry.
my thoughts are with you and your family.
(NukeDad) Thanks, Melissa; hopefully will find out something soon. Sleep deprivation EEG last week was normal, we have an MRI tomorrow then a tilt table test and EKG in October
Sep 10, 2009 @ 12:51 pm